heavy heart

how i wish that i could turn back time and prevent all these mishaps from happening. How i wish i could save him from facing such a tough and horrifying consequence.

i cannot imagine the kind of pain one would have to go through in there and yet my close one is going to. yet i have to keep it a secret and put on a mask to pretend nothing has happen. i live everyday with a heavy heart. i feel so helpless standing there and unable to do anything. heart pain.

i hope the 20 days will pass by in a flash. i look forward to the release and the joy of seeing him home. for now... i could only bear the pain in me and pray that things will be smooth for him. please help me dad and make him safe.

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