Wednesday, November 23, 2005

back 2 blog

baq 2 blog once again...

stupid chatter box... mux leave msg regularly 2 prevent expiry.. WTH!! so.. plz do leave me msgs.. THKX!!

sianz.. all tests n projects r here 2 torture me again!! KUA TIO GUI AH! wed having audit c.a n i tink i'm gonna flunk again. n my stupid com @ home still still still still cannot work!! :(
itx coming 2 the end of nov n the farewell dinner 4 BWSS is coming soon.. sian.. dunno wat 2 wear 4 the dinner. but looking forward 2 meet all my sec sch frenx again!!! n x'mas is coming soon.. n wat does tis mean????? my pocket is gonna have a big big hole again!!!!!!

hate my bro.... coz he's going cambodia soon.. holiday .... 10 days.. n i'm gonna stuck in this stupid island mugging 4 tests n projects.. idiot!! but nvrmind... going tokyo 4 holiday tis coming CNY!!! yeahz! but haven go n book lahz! mux go redi!!!! if not later full house again! tat will somehow b my last holiday b4 enlistment 2 NS! oh yah.. medical checkup is on 30th nov... yeahz.. its 8am n i wun have 2 come sch tat day! :P

yup, life saving test coming up soon.. hope tat i can get my life guard license asap!! gonna "chiong" all the way 4 tis test!!!

hmmz...... a relationship takes 2 hands 2 clap. i'm stupid 2 wait when i get no respond. i dun wan 2 b stupid animore. no more! --- hope it will b a right decision!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

haizz

haixzz..... computer still cannot work... cannot serve.. only at times "heng heng" can log in to msn... lucky still can use sch computer!!!

i'm fine redi... thkx 2 all those who showed concern. sometimes ppl do feel happy n at times sad... rant rant on my blog will makes me feel better. nw i'm fine... can i say tat... juz tat i've made up my mind.... let fate decide the path 4 me.

sch is fine.. jux tat all c.a n projects r eithering due soon or test coming soon. stress is coming soon... wth..

ok lahz... same things again.. will try 2 "repair" my com asap... haiz.. really irritates me!!! haha.. bve baq blogging soon!

Friday, November 11, 2005

baq 2 blog

been quite some time since i've blogged.... in sch now.. having 3 hrs break... wth.... :(

ok.. here's my updates on what had happened recenty..
nt very gd mood these few days... irritated wif home, some ppl, myself n myself still.

home - still the same old probx here n there. irritating. hope that things will b better but never will it seem 2 improve at all. this is nt call a home.. battle ring. cold wars. life have been sucky ever since dad left. sick.. really sick! accomodating n compromising seems 2 b fruitless now. wat to do tell me?? i wan 2 leave tis home. SICK!

some ppl - PLZ DUN TELL ME HOW I SHOULD TREAT PPL I HATE! coz u din noe wat i went thru. when i treat her like afren n wat did i get in the end?? lies all lies ! CRAP! n PHOBIA!!!... tats wat i have to say!

myself - baq 2 square again. i juz cannot move on wif phobia of losing again. so many battles i've fought n yet it nvr seem 2 me tat i've manage 2 succeed in a single one. maybe staying life as it is nw is better. single. no worries. but there will b times of loneliness 2 esp when u dun have a family tat u can lean on to support. a listening ear is no where 2 b found 2. certain things i dun wan 2 say to ppl. but there will b always one tat i wish i could share all our ups n downs 2gether. i've nt made a decision. but i tink i'm on the very edge of giving up. coz i'm afraid. wif all painful experiences .. i cannot bring myself 2 b as brave as i use 2 be. ppl may say i've a never say die attitude but i'm still fearful. really! nvrmind.. i'll make a decision soon. i will. but i'm in a dilemma. shld i hang on? if i do i really dunno wat i will become again. maybe i shld coz its better 2 be frenx. watever it is maybe its juz me being a scaredy cat. tat i admit. i am afraid.

anyone out there can help me??? i doubt so!..........

things 2 b happy about??? nahz.... nothing much lah... there's always a story behind a smile. but the story 4 me seem to b always nothing good. i'm glad 2 have my blog here to let me pour out all my probx. to my blog: thks alot man! yups really feel better now.

aniwae if anyone reading tis blog of mine n find my post full of crap n rubbish, dun hesitate to press the "X" button on the top right hand corner 2 close tis window! coz itz bout my life, its my blog n i write wat i like!

Saturday, November 05, 2005

boring sch!!

SIANZ AH!! lesson starts @ 8am 2dae n until now which is 8.35am ... lesson have not started sia!!! stupid teacher, mux wait 4 class rep 2 go get the notes. i tink he is a new teacher tats y. pui ah pui!!!

yesterday went 2 liyana's house 2 celebrate her bdae as well as hari raya. had a great time n her mum's cooking was great 2. the cookies or kuey they call it.. was very nice.. love the chocolate cookies. yum yum!! thkx so much ya n hope u like the present we gave u. esp the SURPRISE!! haha... nice rite.. more funny lah... n YES i can't wait 2 c someone dance!! hahahaha.... sure damn funny one!!!!

yupz.. very sad my com still cannot work. very sad ... haiz.

nt in very gd mood... i tink i'm tinking 2 much coz i've lost 3times le i dun wanna lose another battle. hope things will get better bahz!

Thursday, November 03, 2005

irritating com.

my com @ home is so irritating!!!!

still cannot work despite a system restore!! gonna smash it soon!! awe... so sad!!! in sch now.. then can use com n blog... tink i'll b away 4 some time until my com works b4 i'll start blogging!!! meanwhile feel free 2 leave me msg @ my tagboard will read the msg when i'm in sch n will try 2 blog in sch 2!