It has been some time since i blogged. busy and tired recently.
5 years ago i made a decision to forget her. i put aside my feelings and moved on with life. On and off i met many other suitable girls but none made it. all bcoz i am unable to take another 1 step further. or there isn't any infinity at all.
5 years ago we walked our own path and our path crossed each other once again 5 years later. I thought all was over. But all he while i was decieving myself. The wound was torn open once again. The pain you inflicted was deep. Is it hatred? Or is it that i cannot tolerate seeing you cheating other guys? I feel so sorry for you that your life is like that. My heart still aches.
Why didn't I move on? I don't want to go through the same old thing again. I am afraid of failure. However, not many people know why. Even my closest ones don't know. I am in my mid 20s. The prime time of a person's life and I am being asked to find a partner soon. Vexed. They do not understand why. The sadest thing is one even asked if i like guys. They just do not understand and I can't really blame them.
I bury myself in work and studies. I am tired and exhausted. Give me a break people. Don't hurry me to find a partner. I have many other priorities, not a relationship now. I am not ready. All because the wound has not healed.
Please... give me a break.
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