"done your best"

what is the definition of "done ur best?"

i really dunno. i dunno if i had done my best in helping the poor uncle at the pool yesterday. if only i told the lifeguards earlier. he may not had died. is it all my fault? the lifeguards were not on alert too. does it mean tat the person who saw the victim will suffer the guilt? i tink i am. till now i'm still damn guilty. i dun wan any rewards coz i din do much. i'm disappointed too. had i done my best? many people told me this but i doubt so. so how do you define "done your best?"..........

life recently had quite alot of changes. new work environment n new colleagues. suffering the guilt from the death of a man, the amount of money i keep spending, missing all my IP work days, missing a few of my poly mates, missing my sec sch classmates(especially), miss those golden times spent together. life changes everyday. n tat is true. nowadays i dun tink i'm tat happy as i use to be. especially after the swimming pool case. i'm in a daze most of the times. stoning too.

~i dunno if i should go 4 it...... itz just special but i dun tink i'm prepared....~

baq to PS

transfer list out again. baq to old place. but not old home. another new challenge at PS. a whole new team too. hope tat things will be better. will continue to "chiong"!!!!

thanks alot to j8 team. especially to kevin. coz he was the one who supported me all the way since the first day i was transferred to S&K. did learn alot from him too! hope tat his new home at causeway point will be better 4 him!!!

tml is another full shift at PS..... omg... haha... n my bed is saying ... "come on baby!!! come n lie one me .... " haha... abit ... RA.... but ... watever!!! nitex!

transfer, transfer

haiz... gonna get transfer again. possibility is there. will noe in a few dayz time. maybe even 2ml. hope i wun be affected ba. if gt also hope not far far one. like parkway. muz change 3 bus. 2day ask me go parkway n i reached home 11.45pm. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

2ml off again! n sunday also my offday! hooray! so happy! finally a sunday offday!! yoohoo!!!! recently watched a movie "poisedon" @ the new cathay cinema. not 2 bad. the movie is nice n the cinema also not bad. can go there watch movie next time. n i played pool recently 2. tat was wif my ip colleagues. ok.. i did the same old rubbish again. the white ball flew off the pool table again. haha.... so paiseh..... :P

hmmx.....hope tat i will be confirmed staff next mth so tat i will get increased pay. haha. hope so ba.... n hope tat the GSS will bring me lots of OT. then can get more $$$$... haha... i want my nike shoes... haha..

ok... gtg now... ZZZZ time. nitex.... ('',)

election day

2day is election day n itx my off day 2. yeahz....... gotta go tuition jet later. coz yesterday one staff MC so i gotta work full shift! no choice, gotta changed the tuition day. yup n i cannot wait 4 dinner. its like been sooooo long since i ever had grandma's cooking!!!!! yum yum. everyday also eat outside. seldom will i gt home cooked food. ok.. i wan 2 continue go watch my VCD liaoz.... byee..!! :P

madness!!!!

tis is terrible! i ate non stop 2day!!!!!! die.... fats alert!!!!!!!!! 2ml shall be my diet day! :P

application to NTU was unsuccessful. just as wat i expect. nevermind. will try again next year. quite sad actually. regretful too. regret not putting my chance to good use. well, a lesson to learn from. met hardi today 2 pass her, her bdae present. n i dun wan the POA shirt. i wan the specx... u noe which one.. so nice n its GREEN!!!!!! :> had dinner wif tis woman at Delifrance. not nice one the food. only their bread can make it. the pasta also not nice. pastamania is nicer. then we shop around j8. paid my bills too. n of cuz i irritated tis mad woman to the core. so HARDI! if u buy me tat shirt i will buy tat .............. from World of Sport n gif to ur SKY!!!! haha........

i wan 2 highlight my hair. dunno how much. i also need shoes. $$$$$$$$$$ gotta work harder liaoz.... ahha! in need of going shopping! 2ml after work gotta gif my cousin, Jet tuition! tat little devil!!!!!! but i enjoy teaching children. n i missed the little toodler tat i carried the other time at shop. so cute!!!!!! carry him n he just kept on calling .. "Kor Kor! Kor kor!".... :)

ok.. i need 2 go sleep le... MORNING SHIFT again 2ml !!!!! no... later... haha!

Labour's Day, 1st May 2006

1st of May, Labour Day.


9.45 am: arrived at YCK Swimming Complex after my heavy breakfast.

10.10 am: started practicising my CPR wif "Little Anne". in hope tat i will clear my CPR test.

10.30 am: wilson, ryan & adrian arrived n we were practicising our CPR n blood circulation once again. waiting patiently n nervously 4 our test to start.

12.30 pm: the Bronze Medallion & CPR test started. nearly flunked my CPR. so scary. the tester walked to me, passed me my theory test qn n stood there 4 a moment. " YOU! CPR.... ermmz.. ok... clear!".... i heaved a sigh of relief. luckily i was able to answer the theory qns. one shot n i cleared. phew!

2.05 pm: the water based test started. land n water based rescue wif aid was fine. then the horror came. 3rd item, rescue fitness. gotta strip off from our long sleeve shirt n pants, dive into the pool swim 50 m and tow victim 50 m back to land, all within 3min 15sec. luckily, record broken. we all broke our personal best timing. adrian clocked 2min, wilsom 2min 23 sec n i clocked 2min 27sec. tat was 12 sec off my personal best. so happy!

however, instructor skipped the contact tow section. luckily. was already so tired from the rescue fitness.m imagine swim n tow another 100m!!! the other test item was fine. luckily 4 the initiative test. i was able to tow 2 person baq. luckily the tester did nt gave me a too difficult scenario. lastly was the 400m swim. 8 bloody laps n i nearly dropped dead on the floor after tat. shag out!

3.45pm : ALL OF US PASSED THE TEST!!!!!!!! n now i'm a LIFEGUARD. still waiting 4 my letter to come. i
want 2 fine a part time lifeguard job!!! yeahz!!!


tat was wat i really want to share n note down in my blog. haven been blogging 4 a few days coz after my test on monday i had to go baq to work n was really very tired. worked till 12.30am due to the conversion. then the next day worked from 8am till 8pm. so damn tiring. so did nt have time 2 blog. 2dae was my off day. slept till noon den cleared my room, watched VCD n attended a relative's funeral. just came baq not 2 long ago. gonna work 2ml too. gonna push sales again!!!!!!


~ Is life is all about working hard to get results n returns? Sometimes when u put in ur effort but you will still be blamed or will recieve bad feedback ( "u r not doing well enough!") its such a sad story sometimes. Well... in life not everything is fair! & i agree!!!!!! ~