NSF- PTP, 2 weeks confinement

the 2 weeks of confinement is really very stressful mentally n physically.

mentally

missing home, my bro, uncle n aunt. missing my room. missing grandma's cooking. missing the freedom. first week was still fine. but it soon starts to get taxing over the first weekend. the daily routine was quite hectic. so many things to remember. so many things to do. pace is very fast. sometimes feeling like prisoner and not a soldier. afraid of doing wrong things too. been so careful in everything i do.

calling home was the most difficult thing to do. tears will start to flow. but dun wan to show it. dun wan them to worry for me. but i'm worried bout them more. every start of the day was tormenting. Y MUST I SERVE THE ARMY??? is the question i'll ask myself in the morning. but spirits n morale soar high at night. coz one day is over. one more day nearer to book out day.

physically

training was no doubt tough. but i know its all for our own good. just unwilling to do my best. all coz i'm not in the mood and most importantly is being homesick. insufficient of sleep n rest also made everything worst. but i know this is the adjustment phase. adjusting to military life.

when mental stress + physical stress = sick

yupz. i fell sick on the 2nd week. had slight fever twice n a bad lao sai. though was excused for two days. but the morale was not there. coz i know i missed many things. i need to catch up. i missed a route march. sergeant tan said he dun tink i need to do it again. but tat sergeant teo says i need to. sianz. watever it is... i chose to listen to sergeant tan to comfort myself.

now i'm finally at home. morale kind of low. coz tml is book in day. bought all my stuff n got most of my things ready. haiz.... still wat to do? i must adjust to the military life. 11 more weeks to POP. counting down now. :P

life this coming book in will be harsher. coz confinement week is over. lets just hope tat platoon sergeant will be in good mood always. n hope everyone cooperates.

everyday is a new day. n it will be better ba.






~ i dun wan to lead an army life... i just want to lead a simple life... but i noe i dun have a choice. wat to do?? bear with it n it will be over soon!!! ~

Enlisting soon

yupz.... today is enlistment day. will be enlisted in 14 hours time. starting to feel low. no mood liaoz....

celebrated uncle's bday in advanced today. had a great dinner. gonna miss all my loved ones liaoz......

be baq 3 weeks later. gonna miss my lovely blog........ time to say goodbye n i'll be baq!!!! :P

ktv was fun

watched BIG MOMMA'S HOUSE 2 just now.. not bad. funny! after tat went to PS to meet joanne to get back my taxi fare claim. saw kevin n kelvin there too. but heard from them tat the pig, chloe was coming n off i exchanged my shorts for cargo pants n left soon. ya.. dun wan to c tat pig there especially at PS. so irritating. slap her.

as usual went dinner wif aunt, uncle n bro. met minyi after tat. on the way there geetha called. had a good chat with her. good to hear that she is doing fine. so nice of her to give me a call before my enlistment. really appreciate her thoughts.

ktv was fun. though did not sing well. was not in good condition but still i enjoyed it. n guess wat?? minyi drove me home!!!!!! haha... so envious! i still haven pass my btt. paiseh.... :(
haha... ya i can continue that after my NS. n i must pass!!!! :P

well... its 2.20am... i have less than 48 hrs to enlistment.......

well...i'm bored! supposed to go out in the afternoon but it was cancelled! but i'll still meet up wif minyi tonight 4 ktv. nothing to do so i'm here writing rubbish on my blog.

starting to miss working. starting to miss blowing my whistle. haiz. y mux all guys in singapore go thru NS? waste of time sia. 2 years i can become a swimming instructor with steady income. 2 years i can complete my degree. 2 years makes alot of differences. though the 3 months of BMT sounds fun. (for some activities only), but the subsequent time spent in the unit is gonna be waste of time especially when u get into some nonsense unit. doing nothing sometimes. (heard from frenz) i rather spend those times trying to achieve my goals. haiz... wat to do? who call me to be born in singapore n be a singaporean.

my goals:
1) i want to be a swimming instructor
2) i want to open my own shop
3) i want a degree certificate
4) i want to learn wakeboarding
5) i want to scuba dive
6) i want to go japan n korea in summer or spring
7) i hope to find a girlfriend ( can be like jin shan shun.. haha.. lol)
8) i want to have my own house ( i want to live on my own)

and the list might just go on n on whenever i have a new goal. haiz.. got to defer some of my goals for 2 years lo. waste my time. and i really hope tat my 2 years of ns will be a fruitful one. hope to learn new things. if not its really gonna waste my time. maybe NS can help me lose more weight n give me a more tone up body.

haiz.. so boring... nothing to do.. maybe i should go watch my concert DVD or some movies since i have some still haven watch................................

dinner wif cousin n niece at GENKI SUSHI

yummy yum yum... had sushi for dinner at GENKI SUSHI. was not tat bad. still edible... but who cares... as long as there's sushi ! yup.. dinner was wif my cousin esther and niece victoria. after tat we shop around marina square. went to In Base to visit my frenx.

today was my last day at TAC. will miss blowing the whistle, playing wif the kids especially the inflatables on weekend. n i will miss the days when i will observe the swimming instructor coaches the kids. yup.. i wanna be a swimming instructor!!!! definitely thanks to abdul who was so very understanding n flexible at work. a great superior! n the aquatics team.. ur the best. thks to jun hao who introduced me such a gd job. n hope tat adrian n wilson will do well there.

suddenly i have a sudden urge to learn wakeboarding.. but wat the hell... NS!!!

well.... countdown... 3 more days...... :P

busy week

gonna be a busy week. many gatherings. got sooo many people i want to meet up before my enlistment. sometimes i really wonder is there a need to go NS?? 2 years is a waste of time. but think about it again.... it does has its benefits too. u can learn more things there too.

yup starting to get my things redi liaoz..... many things to bring sia.... busy... got things to buy somemore. still got a few things i need to bring and buy.

gotta make sure tis stupid brain of mine remember all the things i need to do... aiyo......

my last week being a civilian

juz woke up n tis is the first time i am blogging early in the morning!!! :P

and tis is my last week being a civilian!!!! next saturday.. the auspicious 9th sep 2006 @ 2pm.. i'll enlist into 2 years of national service. n yup this few days will be catching up wif frenx n relatives!!! quite busy though... but its gonna be fun!! had never thought so much of how life is gonna be in NS. juz look forward to it lo. hope tat its gonna be fun. anyway its something new that i will be going thru. well.. at least it stay me away from home... but poor brother of mine got to tolerate all those rubbish. but not to worry much coz he dun care most of the time!

been working lifeguard for the past weeks. well its fun though but sad to say i gonna leave due to NS. really enjoyed working there wif all the staff at the aquatic department. there are also many things i want to do n achieve such as getting my swimming instructor certificate and getting my car license. i also wan to wakeboard n go scuba diving. well all these got to wait. yup n my university studies too, all gonna hold back. sobx sobx.....

well.... well... time really flies is all i can say. hope tat the 2 years of NS will fly past very soon.

recently, got some people ask me.... y dun u find a gf? y????? all i can say is that when one is hurt too much n too long, one needs a longer time to heal. i'm not confident in myself and i feel tat its not time to find one now. i am enjoying my single life to the fullest. i no longer crave to have a gf like i use to be. i just need some time off. some time for myself. maybe i'm just really tired after so many past incidents. yes... i need to rest!! :)

its quite a long post la.... ya... gotta go have my breakfast n got work later on.... be back blogging again.