NSF- PTP, 2 weeks confinement

the 2 weeks of confinement is really very stressful mentally n physically.

mentally

missing home, my bro, uncle n aunt. missing my room. missing grandma's cooking. missing the freedom. first week was still fine. but it soon starts to get taxing over the first weekend. the daily routine was quite hectic. so many things to remember. so many things to do. pace is very fast. sometimes feeling like prisoner and not a soldier. afraid of doing wrong things too. been so careful in everything i do.

calling home was the most difficult thing to do. tears will start to flow. but dun wan to show it. dun wan them to worry for me. but i'm worried bout them more. every start of the day was tormenting. Y MUST I SERVE THE ARMY??? is the question i'll ask myself in the morning. but spirits n morale soar high at night. coz one day is over. one more day nearer to book out day.

physically

training was no doubt tough. but i know its all for our own good. just unwilling to do my best. all coz i'm not in the mood and most importantly is being homesick. insufficient of sleep n rest also made everything worst. but i know this is the adjustment phase. adjusting to military life.

when mental stress + physical stress = sick

yupz. i fell sick on the 2nd week. had slight fever twice n a bad lao sai. though was excused for two days. but the morale was not there. coz i know i missed many things. i need to catch up. i missed a route march. sergeant tan said he dun tink i need to do it again. but tat sergeant teo says i need to. sianz. watever it is... i chose to listen to sergeant tan to comfort myself.

now i'm finally at home. morale kind of low. coz tml is book in day. bought all my stuff n got most of my things ready. haiz.... still wat to do? i must adjust to the military life. 11 more weeks to POP. counting down now. :P

life this coming book in will be harsher. coz confinement week is over. lets just hope tat platoon sergeant will be in good mood always. n hope everyone cooperates.

everyday is a new day. n it will be better ba.






~ i dun wan to lead an army life... i just want to lead a simple life... but i noe i dun have a choice. wat to do?? bear with it n it will be over soon!!! ~